Letter to me

There have been many times in my life where I wish I could’ve told my younger self stuff. So this is a letter to a 10 year old me.

Dearest Haley,

Whether you will believe this or not I am your future self. We have a lot to talk about. First things first you are a lesbian so you can give up trying to like boys now. It all makes sense now doesn’t it? Coming up in your life you are going to have a lot of stuff thrown at you and I wish there was a way I could truly prepare you for it all. Your life is going to change forever because of one simple thing. Soon you will be diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis and you aren’t going to want to show your fear but it’s okay to. Let mom comfort you. You’ll end up in the hospital a lot which it will suck. Although mom will be there next to you the whole time and some of your best memories will be made in a hospital. I wish I could tell you that as you got older your health would get better but it won’t but at least now you can prepare yourself. Oh and since I am getting this chance I want to get you started early. ALWAYS take at least five pairs of rubber gloves with mom. Your collection will become very impressive.

There will be a day coming up in your life that you will have your airsoft gun with you and you’ll be shooting random stuff. I was going to tell you not to shoot that kid off of his bike but do it. People will be pissed and you’ll get grounded but it was a great shot and he deserved it anyways. Two years later though you’ll get just a wonderful idea to shoplift condoms. Don’t do that one. Nothing good came out of that. Plus it’s just embarrassing. Like honestly you will never ever need condoms any ways, I promise. While we are on the topic of being a scamp go easy on mom and dad. They put up with a lot of your shit. Start appreciating them now because they are incredible parents.

Start working on your relationship with Maddie now. When she gets to that sassy age you’ll want to pull out your hair. But she is your only baby sister and you’ll regret not spending time with her and being her best friend. Teach her a good sense of humor and what sarcasm is. Make sure she always knows that she is beautiful and keep her self-esteem high. With Ben don’t give him that chocolate ex-lax. Yes that was hilarious but it was also really mean. Okay maybe you should still do that. He won’t remember it so you’re good. Lindsey will always have your back so make sure you always have hers. She will always be your best friend.

Love,

Haley