Last month I lost someone who meant so very much to me. For six months before moving here I lived with my great grandma and my great aunt Dot. Dot would go from our home to her home in Kansas to be with her husband my Uncle Jeff. Last year he was diagnosed with cancer. She amazes me. She took care of my gram, my uncle, and even me when I needed it. When it was possible my Uncle would come and visit us. Through that time I was struggling with my health but nothing that could compare to the cancer he was fighting and the chemo he was having to deal with. Yet without failing he always made sure I was okay. There was a time that he had to use a walker because he was so weak. I had felt dizzy one day and so he made me sit while he got me water. That might not sound like some big deal but he put himself aside to help anyone else. I have been holding back my pain from his loss. There are people in this world who are so selfless. So caring. So strong to the very end. He never gave up. His body did. The day he passed I was able to text my cousin telling him to tell him how much I love him and he did. Within that hour I received a text saying he had passed. I didn't get to say everything I wanted so here it goes.
Uncle Jeff,
Thank you for your love. Thank you for being there and giving me a shoulder to cry on. Thank you for being such a strong rock even when you were weak yourself. Thank you for reminding me that I matter. Thank you for being my friend and giving me such unconditional love. I have never and never will meet someone who cares so much about his love ones as you. You put everyone first to the very end. I love you so much and I miss you so much. I am so sorry I didn't call you as often as I should've. Hearing your voice was all calming. I know that you aren't gone though. I can feel you with me as I write this. I swear I saw you in the operating room with me last week holding my hand telling me it would be okay. I've dreamt about you many times. Mostly just memories. I am so happy that I was able to get to know you and grow closer to you in those six months. I love you.
Haley
Family is something so sacred and there are times when you are prepared for their loss and times when it just happens and you didn't even see it coming. This world is so crazy you never know what happens. I know that from now on I am going to take any chance I can to spend time with my family and to make sure they know that I love them. I don't want any regrets.
Rest in peace Jeff Peters you will always be missed and you will ALWAYS be loved. So so so loved.
