Forgiveness

How do you forgive? I am terrible at forgiving someone especially after they have hurt me. An example of this is my original surgeon Dr. St. Peters. I feel as if this man ruined my life. He removed my colon and didn’t correctly finish the surgery. He gave me a long list of things that I wasn’t supposed to eat. After meeting my new surgeon today he informed me that he didn’t think my surgery should have been done the way it was and that I can eat whatever I want. Ever since my original surgery I have felt miserable. I haven’t been allowed to eat raw fruits and vegetables. I couldn’t eat corn or popcorn. I love corn. When I think of this man all I can think about is this anger I feel towards him. It’s been a year and I still get angrier each time I think about him. God wants us to forgive each other. Yet I can’t seem to forgive this man or others that have been in my life. Some say to forgive and forget but is that really possible? How do you forgive someone that has ruined your life? Then I remember that no one is perfect. We all make mistakes. I am sure that I have people out there who will never be able to forgive me. Yet I yearn for their forgiveness. I want forgiveness yet I can’t find a way to forgive others. To gain forgiveness I think you need to give it as well.